第1章 戈壁生娃,风起命启
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厚重,连呼吸都带着沉甸甸的压迫感。漫天天地的苍茫喧嚣尽数隔绝在外,一方土坯小屋之内,只剩母子一线生死、老人凝神守护的极致沉静,生与死的博弈,在这方寸小屋内无声上演。
王奶奶压低嗓音,语气平缓厚重、沉稳笃定,带着岁月沉淀下来的安稳力量,一点点压过屋外漫天燥热与荒芜风声,稳稳托住产妇濒临溃散的心神、濒临崩塌的意志。她的声音不高、不亮、不激昂,却像荒原旷野中唯一矗立的磐石,安稳、可靠、让人安心,是李氏此刻绝境之中唯一的支撑、唯一的慰藉。
“忍一忍,丫头。”
“戈壁的娃娃,命最硬、骨最韧、心最沉。落地就能活,扛得住风沙,扛得住酷暑,扛得住寒夜,扛得住人世间所有的苦、所有的难、所有的磨砺。”
李氏虚弱至极地轻轻点头,眼底酸涩汹涌、湿热翻涌、苦楚泛滥,眼眶瞬间泛红发烫,滚烫的湿意瞬间涌上眼底,却被她死死憋着、紧紧忍着、硬生生压了回去,半滴眼泪都不肯落下、半分脆弱都不肯外露。她的胸膛剧烈起伏,心底的委屈、苦楚、无助层层堆叠,几乎要冲破防线,可她硬生生全部压下。
她心底比谁都通透、比谁都清醒:在这绝境一般的戈壁荒滩,眼泪是世上最无用、最廉价、最徒劳的东西。落泪泄心气、流泪散精神、哭泣垮意志,一旦松了这口气、泄了这份劲,她浑身仅存的、撑着大人孩子两条命的力气便会瞬间散尽、彻底崩塌。没人会心疼她的眼泪,没人会救赎她的苦难,哭泣只会让她更快倒下。
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到那时,大人熬不住鬼门关、闯不过生死劫,孩子落不稳、保不住、立不住,便是满盘皆输、家破人亡的绝境。她赌不起,更输不起。
她是两个孩子唯一的靠山、唯一的退路、唯一的依靠。她不能倒、不敢倒、倒不起。丈夫杳无音信,偌大的戈壁,偌大的世间,她孤身一人,无人可依,只能自己撑住天地,护住一双幼子。
嫁给老李的数年岁月里,风沙磨平了她的温柔,清贫熬没了她的矫情,苦难淬炼了她的筋骨,绝境养出了她的坚韧。她早早熬出了戈壁女人刻入骨髓的性子:隐忍克制、不怨不诉、不卑不亢、不示弱、不纠缠、凡事自扛、绝境自强。从前也是爱说笑、有软心的姑娘,终究被生活逼成了无坚不摧的模样。
日子再苦,默默熬;心里再屈,默默咽;前路再难,默默撑。没人心疼,便自己疼惜自己;没人兜底,便自己做自己的退路;没人撑腰,便自己做自己的靠山。这份绝境磨砺出的通透、坚韧与孤勇,日复一日、潜移默化地浸润着两个儿子的成长,早早刻进了他们的骨血,成为兄弟二人一生立身行事的底层底色。
屋内的光线,整日昏暗压抑、暗沉凝滞、不见亮色,像极了这个家常年不变的氛围,沉闷、压抑、看不到希望。
全屋仅有一扇狭小局促、尺寸逼仄的老式木窗,窗棂腐朽变形、虫蛀斑驳、裂痕遍布,早已失了规整模样、没了原本功用。窗面上层层叠叠糊着老旧泛黄的报纸,纸面发黑发脆、边角卷翘破损、经年老化,历经数年风沙侵蚀、烈日暴晒、寒暑交替,早已挡不住风沙、遮不住烈日、隔不住寒暑、阻不住燥气。破碎的窗棂,漏进风沙,也漏进无尽的寒凉与荒芜。
细密黄沙顺着报纸缝隙、木窗裂痕、墙体孔洞源源不断钻进屋内,日日累积、夜夜沉降,在窗台、泥地、墙角、炕沿积起薄薄一层黄土,擦不尽、扫不完、清不干净、除不彻底。岁岁年年,层层堆积,积满了这户人家数不尽的清贫、荒芜与寒凉。屋内永远蒙着一层淡淡的土雾,空气浑浊凝滞、压抑沉闷,是这片贫瘠土地最真切、最赤裸的生活底色。呼吸之间,全是黄土的干涩与岁月的苦涩。
屋内空气闷热浑浊、沉滞厚重,混杂着黄土的干涩粗粝、汗液的腥涩酸楚、枯草木的焦燥气息、旧被褥的潮闷霉味。数重浊气交织缠绕、层层堆叠、密不透风、循环往复,死死压在人心头、堵在胸口间,让人呼吸发紧、心神发闷、身心俱疲。常年身处这样的环境,无人不熬得面色暗沉、气血不足、心神疲惫、筋骨劳损,可这已是他们常年赖以生存的方寸天地。
墙角整齐码着半垛晒干的沙蒿枯枝,枯硬焦黄、长短规整、堆叠有序,是这一户人家全年做饭、烧水、取暖、度日的全部柴火来源。七十年代的戈壁农家,无煤无炭、无薪无柴、无外物可依,家家户户皆是如此,靠着荒滩捡拾的枯枝,勉强维系烟火生计。
每一根枯枝、每一束荒草,都是家人顶着烈日风沙、弯腰躬身、长途跋涉、一趟趟背回院落的血汗家底,半点浪费不起、丝毫挥霍不得。夏秋顶着酷暑风沙捡拾囤积,冬春省着用、抠着用、惜着用,勉强支撑全年生计。极致贫瘠的生存环境,早早教会了两个孩子节俭、克制、惜福、务实、
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